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Cara Delevingne Says She Thought About Ending Her Life Due To 'Internalised Homophobia And Shame’

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Cara Delevingne: 'I Thought About Ending My Life'Marc Piasecki - Getty Images

Cara Delevingne has revealed that she once considered taking her life after struggling to grapple with her sexuality during her youth.

On her forthcoming BBC documentary Planet Sex with Cara Delevingne, the model/actor - who has previously discussed her pansexual identity, explains how she struggled to understand her gender as a teenager.

'I couldn’t talk to anyone about it,' she recalls of her teenage years during the documentary. 'I had a lot of internalised homophobia and shame. I thought that I was abnormal.'

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Speaking specifically about making the documentary series, which premieres in the UK on BBC Three and BBC iPlayer on Thursday, December 1, the LGBTQ+ advocate told the BBC: 'It has very much changed my life. Now I’m happier than I’ve ever been.

'I feel really, really proud of what we created. I know I shouldn’t feel shame but I truly believe there are souls like me all over the world. I think this opened me up into being ready for it.'

The 30-year-old has expressed her hopes for the TV series to raise awareness on the reality of questioning one's gender identity and to help others going through similar struggles.

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She shared: 'In the world that I live in, most of my friends are straight. I’d never been to Pride before making this show. I have a lot more queer friends now.

'If we can change anyone’s minds to be more willing to accept themselves, or someone else, that’s all I want.'

The former runway regular previously told The Times of her journey to understanding her sexuality: 'Growing up as a queer child was isolating and hard to navigate at times.'

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During a rare interview with her sisters, Poppy, 36, and Chloe, 37, for the news outlet, she added: 'My sisters did their best to be there for me but it was something I had to go through myself to truly know who I was. I’m still on that journey and will continue to be for the rest of my life.'

If you're struggling with similar issues you can find 24/7 support in the UK by calling Samaritans on 116 123, by texting SHOUT to 85258, or visiting a Samaritans branch. Visit for further details.

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